Adding my love to the world one project at a time.
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They all go away, while I remain to stay. Until I’m alone with just my thoughts for company and my memories for comfort, sitting alone, thinking what was and what might have been like billions before me. We are so many yet we are all alone. Because they all go away, while we remain to stay.
By MELINANI KING 2024, related to the passing of my father.
Those people
Inspired by Jennifer Burbridge
March 2023
Yes, we miss them; they were everything to us. We will never forget them because they are always on our minds; even when years go by, we still think of them and how much they have impacted us. Still, we need to breathe. Still, we need to eat. Still, we need to live. With every second seeming harder than the next, there will be one day when it is easier. Not because we forget but because we can remember fondly all that they were and all that they added to us and our world.
So, perk up and Breathe! We are not yet done with our journeys, although it will be harder without them. We must persevere. We must go on. We must remember what advice they would have given us today. Everyone is a part of our little club sooner or later, so we must not forget to support them because even broken pieces can make a whole as long as we hold each other up to reach the stars.
Dedicated to all those I love and have lost and those that have also lost, those we find most dear to our hearts.
Edward Kane
Rose Kane
Annie King
Clarise Kopta
Karen Kopta
Lisa Anders
Melynda Hopwood
Ronald DeGumbia
Jeremy Lum
Jackie Spradly
Jahna Steele
Aaron Mosley
Kenneth King
Edward Kane
A failing body but a strong mind.
The knowledge that any day might be your last. The body you counted on for the past 96 years finally called for an intermission. Knowing what goes on around you while you are locked in a small place must be hard.
A place only you can enter and yet cannot leave. A place that stops you from celebrating. A place that prevents you from holding those that are dearest to you.
A strong mind but a failing body.
No longer listening, no longer chatting, only flashes of light and intermittent vibrations of sound. You can feel those that surround you holding back emotions. You can smell those around you shuffling through life. You think of the past and remember all that is dear.
Your body hinders you from moving But still,… A strong mind.
Author: Melinani King
September 2022
My Whole Life
Dedicated to James Hussein
2021
My whole life, now 45 years, I’ve waited and longed to be in love.
The type of love in books and movies.
The type of love that has no time exists in every space of your being and every breath you take.
A love full of passion when every moment together you melt into one another.
Until you…
I waited.
Every moment away is dramatic agony.
Every moment with you is proof that fate, love, and the pull of two halves of an atom will find each other.
My whole life, now 45 years, I waited.
I waited for you.
Pandemic 2020 By Melinani
The cooks cooked elaborate meals and the children drew on the walls without fear of repeals.
The Instructors learned zoom with excitement, while the students studied with a bit of resentment.
The restaurants struggled to keep food on our tables and average citizens delivered if they were abled.
The artist made art of all forms and shapes while the world critiqued them for all their mistakes.
The leaders lead with the worlds hopes and dreams in their hands as the media decided our can’t and our cans.
The singers sung and our musicians played, the world captive audience the social media waylaid.
In their boxes on the streets the homeless were forgotten, people still drove by with no thought of what they’d just boughten.
With toilet paper scarce and mask made at home, people looked to their neighbors who before this were unknown.
The story of the world told time and time again, we keep fucking up and mother nature keeps asking us when.
When will we learn, when will we change, the answer is never because human nature is strange?
The other inhabitants of earth all evolve but no, not us, we are stuck on being kings even when the outlook is ominous.
So here we go again it’s another round of please learn, who will emerge as the best of us and who will simply return?
April 5th , 2020
29 days
When she makes you think.
And she gives you motivation.
She makes you feel for the first time in a hundred years.
When she is like everything.
Her smile makes you warm.
Her touch makes you shiver.
She is your muse and your deterrence.
A distraction from all that is wrong.
She is the memory still not made.
She is the future and she is the past.
It feels like forever.
April 21st, 2019
I will smile
I smile, I look down, I look up, but I smile.
People stare, but I smile.
It hurts, but I smile.
I switch everything off.
I have a blank look, so they think it’s ignorance.
They don’t know the thoughts.
They could never understand the complexity.
I turn it off.
Put it on me.
If you feel better put it all on me.
I will take it all.
I will smile.
I will understand.
Give it all to me.
I will smile.
April 21st, 2019
Taste
It feels like home.
When it hits my tongue its like the first time.
I try to stay away but it keeps pulling me in.
Like an addict I go back.
I can’t get enough.
It twists me, and it pushes me to my limits.
Yet I go back.
Back and forth, push and pull.
Why can’t I stop?
Because it is part of me.
Because it is me.
April 21st, 2019
The others
Alone in a room full of a thousand faces.
Food doesn’t sound good, water is a memory.
When I think, I am saddened.
When I feel I am hurt.
I go against nature and that feels right to me.
The others don’t understand and may never understand.
Those that understand, they hurt as well.
Those that get it are also sadden.
The others know better and still they keep going.
When does it stop, when does it end?
They don’t care.
I am saddened.
April 21st, 2019
Surrounded
I feel surrounded by people...
People who don’t understand
People who are nosy
People who don’t care
Murderers and Rapist.
Disgusting people that make me sick to my stomach.
I also feel surrounded by amazing people
People that love and want to be loved.
People that I want to love and that want to love me.
People that are so empathetic it hurts.
The most wonderful people that might never be scene.
Surrounded by love and hate
Surrounded by the push and the pull that it is to be human
I love you, I hate you...
You are nothing and you are everything.
Surrounded by robots and passion
I’m passionate but feel like a robot.
I am a robot but all I feel is passion.
I want passion, but I love the robots.
I am surrounded!
March 30th, 2019
Long
If you long to fall in love open your heart
If you long to see the world open your eyes
If you long to feel useful hold out your hand
If you long to live forever... create
If you long to be intelligent.... listen
If you long to understand .... imagine
If you long to be loved ....then love
Jan. 25th, 2019
Artist
Art isn’t a drawing or a painting,
It’s not a photograph nor a sculpture.
Art is not a beautifully decorated room
or a song that makes your heart flutter.
A well-prepared meal with a mouthwatering appearance
Or a perfectly planed quilt.
Anyone can paint a picture or write a story. It is the substance, the meaning and the thought process of what they are creating that makes it art. The very different view and the feeling of the person. A painting of lines all going one way would be easy to replicate. The meaning behind those lines, the statement of a society or acceptance is what makes it art.
Art is our heart and it is our souls put somewhere for the world to view and take apart. Instead try to understand, try to savor and enjoy and try to realize someone is sharing their inner thoughts with you and be honored that they did.
By Melinani Kopta
March 30th, 2018
Oh Double Helix
Ahh the beautiful double helix to which no structure can compare.
Your Bonds are so perfect, your pairs so secure,
how could there ever be an equivalent.
An absolute we can count on in every way,
your sexy strands have no disenchanting effect.
Although there are some who do not see your beauty
they must be sad not knowing why.
Oh, Double Helix I love you as much as
Watson and Crick as Franklin and Wilkins
as Biology and Chemistry,
I am your fan…
together
A young girl, A young boy, new to the world and full of its splendor.
Together they face the perils of life
Together they fall and help each other up.
They travel the road we all must travel
They fall in the ditches that most of us do.
They stay the course though they are walking the thin line.
A young girl, A young boy not so new to the world.
A few lessons learned and a few ignored.
A few good times shared and a few forgotten.
They still travel the road we do. They still travel together.
A young girl, A young boy, not so young anymore.
They travel with others now and share the lessons they have learned.
They share the truths and the untruths of trials learned and failed.
They travel together down the road, still helping each other.
Learning more and forgetting more.
A young girl, A young boy at the end of their road.
They still travel together. Though they leave the rest behind them.
They have a new time and a new sense of a New World.
They travel a new road to a new place, still together and now forever.
Test results
The demon inside is finally showing its face. All the wrong I have done...
All the people I never forgave it floats to the surface and bubbles
I can see the deep black ocean in the eyes of the demon and I know it is close to taking over. I fear for my family, and hope the world will not be cruel to them that they will live a long beautiful life. If my demon has come I will fight him with all I have until the day when my skin burns and my eyes no longer shine. Take care of my family is all that goes through my mind, take care and be well my loves.
Zak
My heart aches , it's aches and it aches
The love I carry for you makes my heart yell and scream.
You cannot whisper nor can you yell but my heart yells for you
My heart whispers zack, zack zack
My eyes say I love you every time I think of your smile
My mouth smiles when I think of your squint
Even though you say nothing I understand
Thank you, thank you, THANK Y O U for Making me the one who can hear you.
Athena
An obsession only to lose.
An extraction only to hold on to.
A breath never to be took.
A love to not ever understand.
A magical moment that last an eternity.
Soul
If it doesn't make sense , you are not reading it.
When the picture is a blur you are blind to it.
The scent you smell is yourself.
What you feel is not mine.
D
A divine sheet of paper...
What has been written has also been erased,
though traces still flood your memory.
A towel with which you have taken on sweat, tears and blood.
Life has pored onto you.
When you are washed the fragments still stain you.
Seeing only what is at the tip of you.
Ignoring the blurs in the distance.
You have lost nothing you will ever miss.
Your ongoing mind soon comes to a stop.
All I can do is look upon your weather.
Through a glass I see you as I stand behind Once you were innocent d a rope.
Guarded I dare not reach for you.
To touch you is impossible.
It is as if I am in the dark looking through a one sided mirror.
With my last breath I say to your deaf ear,
We will meet again , only to remember the evil
which has brought us here.
the SOUL within my word's
your heart was broken as was mine, a Xerox of all in the world. though you don't see me i Am always with you. shall i come upon your light so you Not to hear my call. this is the way it must be upon this life. as souls are destined to find each other, They are also destined to be torn apart as in a sad Haiku. do not feel me, or see me, And do not listen to my call. we are one forever, don't forget a soul split in two.i will see you again, even if Not here.
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Once I thought of life’s simple pleasures...
Now realizing deaths many threats.
How can we forget what we have not learned.
You cannot remember when there is not memory.
Gaze into the stars for your answer of a soul you may never touch.
What will you do when you finally find greatness?
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